I’ve been in one of those moods again, where I don’t have anything to say. I would say I’m coming out of my slump, but am just not feeling up to writing or reading much. So haven’t even done a lot of reading of other blogs lately. I’ve been binge watching Lost a lot. Then on Friday, I went to hang out with my friend G. She has a large library of movies, so I borrowed 5 and watched 4 of them over the weekend. She is planning on bringing more to church, so I can trade them out.
This morning I made a broccoli quiche. I’m not much for cooking, as it stresses me out. I bought the ingredients last week, and procrastinated until this morning. So now it’s in the oven, and smells delicious! And I didn’t get as stressed out this time. Of course GR cut my onion and garlic for me, so that helped a lot.
I messed up and overdrew my bank account. I thought something had already come out, but it hadn’t. So thought I had more money then I did. And then since I haven’t been working yet, I was kind of panicking. Bills will start coming out in 4 days. So I asked my church if they could help me. Then my Aunt A has also agreed to help me out some. So I should be good for a little while. Hopefully I will hear about my drug test this week. Then I can start working.
And now the rest of the day I’m just chillin’. I will be going to my friend D’s house, before church, and hanging out.
Love & Peace
Things are starting to come together. I go in tomorrow morning to sign New Hire paperwork at the new job. My new counselor J is awesome! I went to my new recovery group last night and I think it’s going to be a good fit. I am going to Bible Study tomorrow evening at the same place. All of these things are good, but I’m still in the dumps. Why? I don’t know. Once I get my new medication provider, I am going to talk to them about my meds. Just been slumping it lately.
I would say my mood is about a 4 or 5 right now. I decided I needed to keep my promise and write a post tonight.
So last night my mood was a 1. I was not in a good place. A friend R that was in my program texted me to see how I was doing. When I told her my mood was a 1, she invited me over. I got to her place at 9 pm last night, and was there until about 10ish. It was really good to have her encouragement and support. And her dogs and cat loved me, which she said the cat and bigger dog, doesn’t usually like strangers. Most animals are like that with me though. The smaller dog was funny because she kept coming up by my shoulder. She would put her paw on my shoulder and stare at me. It was like she knew I wasn’t in a good place and was trying to comfort me. So that is how my mood went up to a 2 1/2.
Then this morning I woke up depressed. I was not in a good place this morning. I texted my pastor as a way to reach out, and we talked via text briefly this morning. Then I went back to bed. I had to force myself to stay up the rest of the day. Then since I had slept late, I just ate a bowl of cereal when I got up. I however, forgot to take my meds until an hour or more later. Since I didn’t have a hearty breakfast, and it was MUCH later, the meds gave me an upset stomach. I got sick and then felt REALLY tired, so then did lay back down to try and rest. Once I got up and took a warm bath, I felt a little better. My mood was starting to pick up, as I was really looking forward to church tonight. My mood improved between 3 and 4 pm. Church is at 5 pm. After church I stayed after and visited with G, who held church at her house tonight. My church is a house church, so we meet in members homes. I stayed and visited for about two hours. We had a good time and at the end, both G and her husband R said to come back more. So I may take them up on that.
I just arrived home, so now it is time to head to bed. I’ve got a busy day ahead of me.
My mood went from a 1 to a 3 this evening. Will post more tomorrow. I’m to tired right now.