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God’s Protection & My Job

Tonight I was driving home from Recovery Group, and the sun was really bright in my eyes. I’m guessing it was for this other person too. Anyway, this car in front of me stopped at a green light. Had I not gotten over to my right, I would have rear ended them. When I got over though, I didn’t even think to check my blind spot, and another car went around me and honked. I am thankful that God gave me fast reflexes but also the other car who honked at me.

I am done with the computer training now. It took me 2 1/2 days to get it all finished. Today was my first day on the floor. It was good and actually went fairly fast. At least, once I got past the first two hours where I was trying to stay awake. So far, everyone is so friendly at this community. It’s very refreshing! I am thankful for this job.

I will also be moving soon. Either this weekend or next week. I will be moving into a transitional housing program. It is coming together and I know God is in the works.

And now it’s time for bed. I was going to take a 30 minute nap when I got home, but it ended up being at least an hour. I couldn’t believe I slept that long but my body needed it. And I still feel tired and ready for bed now.

Night all and God bless!
Devin

First Full Day Of Work…

Yesterday was my first full day of work. It wasn’t to bad, except that I have two days worth of computer training, which I started yesterday. I was doing computer modules all day. By the end of the day, my brain felt like it was going to explode. I was so glad to come home. I have another day like that today. I am hoping to finish it today. The morning won’t be bad. Yesterday, I went through the morning fast. Then lunch hit, and it was all over after that. And by 5 O’clock, my brain was going at a snails pace. Everyone at work so far is really nice and caring. Of course I thought that at my other care giving job too. Though this just feels different.

Since I was overloaded last night, I didn’t have a post in me, but thought I would post this morning, to keep everyone updated.

Love & Peace
Devin

Drug Test>>>NEGATIVE!

The drug test is figured out. There was a small amount of codeine, which I still don’t know where it came from. I wouldn’t think poppy seeds would would come up as codeine. Anyway, it was a small enough amount that they were able to count it as negative. So I go in for orientation today, and start the computer stuff tomorrow. It sounds like they are going to train me right away to be med tech, which will give me an extra dollar an hour. I am excited for this new chapter in my life!

Love & Peace
Devin

New Job

Yay! I pretty much got the job. I will be working at another Assisted Living Facility as a caregiver. I just have to pass the background check and pee test. And if I don’t pass those, there’s something wrong. I could be starting as early as Friday or Monday. I’m kind of hoping for Monday, then I can start out on a fresh week. I will also get Sunday’s off for church, which was a BIG deal for me. I will also get to start out part time and then go to full time. This is also a good thing. Then I can get into it without being stressed to the brim right away. This is the best thing for me right now. I am really excited as the manager that interviewed me was really awesome! Now I just have to wait for the call for paper work portion. Whoo-Hoo!

Love & Peace
Devin

Getting A Lot Done

Today, I’ve got a lot going on and I’m not quite half way done with my list. A lot of things going on around the house, then meeting with my pastor/friend, S. After I meet with S I have an interview at another assisted living facility. I was going to try to transfer to the facility, with same company I was working for, up near me, but they didn’t have any care-giving positions available. So I signed up for CNA classes but nothing has come about with those yet. Then my housemate met a woman that works at this other facility. C said she seemed really cool and flexible, so I called her today. I meet with her this afternoon, anytime after 3 pm. So I will head over there, after S’s. I will fill out an application and then meet with this other woman for an interview. Not sure if it’s the main interview or if it’s just kind of a meet and greet thing. Anyway, so I updated my resume and it’s ready to go with me.

Now it’s time to go do sweeping and mopping, and then I will be over half way done with my list. YAY!!!!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful day!
Devin

Don’t Know How I Feel…

I’m not even sure where to start on how I feel right now. I’m feeling discouraged about my job, and discouraged about myself. When I got my job in September, I really felt like God was leading me in that direction. I still don’t doubt that He put me in that job, but I’m wondering why. It’s gotten to the point where I’m not getting many hours. And I’m really irritated with most of the people there. The employees, that is; I love the residents. If I’m not going to be even making part time hours, then I need to find another job. I don’t know where that would be. I don’t know that I want to move on to another assisted living facility. I feel like I am back to square one, and stuck. I don’t know how to move on, again. I feel like I am always going to be in this stuck place. Because of my own limitations, I don’t know how to move on. I feel like only a couple people really understand how I am feeling. How I have no energy. And how the stress of the job, for me, isn’t the normal stress that someone without mental illness goes through. It goes beyond the next level and into the anxiety level of stress. The part where you really just want to scream, and curl up into a ball and cry. When I say my job stresses me out or the idea of working full time hours, stresses me out; people just don’t get it. They think I am being lazy or over exaggerating. They don’t know what that kind of stress is like. And I have had SO many people tell me, when I’m talking to them about my hours being cut at work, “well that’s not going to help you get out of your aunts.” Gee, really? You could have fooled me. I don’t need people to state the obvious. I’m not asking for you to tell me what I already know, I just want you to listen. It’s like telling me, smoking is bad for me, and will kill me. You think I don’t know that? And now that I’ve quit, AGAIN, I am feeling antsy and I really want a cigarette. I noticed the cravings are a lot worse at night. And I’ve been really missing my pup, Wyatt lately. I feel guilty that I can’t be with him. I feel guilty that he and I are both having to depend on other people. He needs to be back with me. I haven’t even been able to go see him, since i got this job. Either I don’t have the time or I don’t have the money.

Tired of being stuck,
Devin

Balancing Act

For all of my working adult years, I have been trying to figure out the balancing act. When I work 40 hours a week, I am exhausted! I don’t understand how people can work 40 hours a week, and get anything else done. I come home from work and all I want to do, is sit down to my latest show and relax. I don’t have the energy to do anything else. Doing cleaning on my days off is the best, as far as when I get things done. The idea of working 40 hours a week for the rest of my life is SO overwhelming! I don’t know how people work and go to school full-time plus have children. I would go crazy!

I am living with my aunt and uncle and do 10 hours of cleaning for them, for room and board. Now that I have a job I go to work and come home, to cleaning. These next two weeks are overwhelmingly busy, and I’m trying to figure out how I am going to get anything at home done. I was going to do some things tonight but after work and then a counseling appointment, I just wanted to sit down, so did. Now I have Thursday and Friday to get 9 more hours of stuff done and don’t have the faintest clue on how to do it. Next week is also going to be hectic and so I don’t know what is going to happen there either. Then on top of that, I owe 6 hours for some hours I missed a few times a couple months ago. This is all so overwhelming that I don’t know how to tackle it.

So how do people balance everything out and not be so totally exhausted? Or are they exhausted and they do it anyway? I don’t like being so tired all the time. I want to be able to enjoy my life and my time. So how do I do that, and survive???

Any thoughts are great!

Love & Peace
Devin