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My Leprechaun

I didn’t really have anything to write tonight, so thought I would share a story I wrote, awhile ago. When I had a Facebook account, I did a thing for a story idea. I wrote the first two words, and then had my friends add words, for a sentence. I then took that sentence and made it into a story. It is as follows…

Late tonight, as I ate my Lucky Charms, I saw a Leprechaun dancing high, by a street light.

Late tonight, I was home alone watching some late night movies on TV. I suddenly had a craving for something sweet, so went to the cupboard to see what I could find. A box of Lucky Charms was way in the back, so I grabbed them. I poured a bowl full and then went to the fridge and grabbed some milk. As I ate my Lucky Charms, I picked all of the cereal pieces out first, saving the marshmallows for last. This is the only correct way, to eat this scrumptious cereal! I finally got all of the cereal pieces eaten. I was just getting ready to take a bite of marshmallows, when I noticed they all started to swirl together. They started swirling so fast, they were running together. All the colors started to flow into a bright green color. It got brighter and brighter and then all of a sudden jumped out of the bowl. I fell backwards out of my chair and screamed. As I looked up, I saw a leprechaun walking around my kitchen. I slowly crawled backwards out of the room. As I went around the corner, I heard my front door open and close. I peeked around the corner and saw that the leprechaun had left. I crept up to the window and peeked out. Out at the street, the Leprechaun was dancing high up, by a street light. He danced around it, in circles. Then all of a sudden, he popped and was gone. Green confetti showered the ground. I ran outside to the spot where the confetti had fallen. When I got there, nothing was left of the leprechaun. I stood there for a minute and then started to fall backwards. I fell, fell and fell. All of a sudden I landed. As I landed, my body jolted. I was suddenly wide awake in my bed. I walked out to my kitchen and there was no evidence of a leprechaun or even a box of lucky charms. It had all been a dream. Or had it?

Hope you enjoy!


From My Ex…

So yesterday when I got off work, I saw that I had a text with an XXX area code. I pretty much knew who it was since she is the only person that would text me with that area code. My Ex, M. She texts me roughly every 6 months, even though I told her I don’t want any contact. This time she was asking me if I wanted some pictures that she found of mine. My first thought was, “what if she actually has pictures that I didn’t get with me.” Then I thought, “No, I’m pretty sure I got all the pictures of mine.” “And if not, can I just let them go and forget about them?” Then because I always second guess my decisions, I talked to my pastor about it. While talking to S, I came to the conclusion that I really didn’t want to bring M into my life. Considering that she has a reputation of finding excuses to text me around the same time period, I could most likely be sure this was just a ploy to try and pull me back in. To kind of test the waters, I decided I would just respond with, “No Thanks.” Then depending on if or what she responded, would pretty much answer my question. Her response back, was this, “Why not? Just so you know, I have moved on. I am in a relationship. The pics are of when you went to help your grandma move.” Ah, so she really just wanted to tell me she was in a relationship. OK, well I moved on a long time ago and I didn’t need to be in a relationship to do that. Though I was the one that broke it off, so while it was hard, it was probably easier for me to move on. I was looking for brighter and better things. She was an emotional abuser and very negative. I didn’t want that toxicity in my life. Second, thankfully I already had those pictures so didn’t need to respond to that. I figured that I probably had them since we had made copies of all the pictures while we were still together. I have gone through a lot of the CDs of pictures I have, and found that there are a lot of duplicated pictures. I wasn’t too worried about them after my first response.

So after her last response, here are some things I wanted to respond back. One was to tell her what I said above, “That I had moved on and didn’t need a relationship to do it with.” And second, “So you want an award or something?” Neither of these things would have helped the situation. Now admittedly, I am very curious as to who she is in a relationship with. She was an emotional abuser, negative attitude and had poor hygiene. I’m not saying this to slander her but it’s who she was. I am really hoping that she has grown and has found someone where they can be on equal ground, and neither be abused or co-dependent. Our relationship was definitely the latter, also. So upon my curiosity, I decided to do some searching for her Facebook page. Now I had blocked her on all of mine (There was a time when I had multiples for things like Farmville). I couldn’t find her but thought maybe she had blocked me. So I started a Facebook under my fictitious name and searched but still couldn’t find her. So either she has it hidden very well or she has shut it down. It would surprise me if she shut it down because when we were together all she ever wanted to do was play Facebook games and other online games. Maybe this other person is good for her and got her away from the computer some. Who knows? I was a lot disappointed that I couldn’t find her, but it was probably for the best. Maybe it was a God thing, knowing that it was better for me not to find her. I will never know.

I said I moved on, but then admitting the above makes me wonder. We were together for 4 years though so she was a big part of my life. It’s hard to move on from that completely. Something to talk to my counselor and pastor about.

Glad to be to a better place in my life!

Love & Peace

Too Much For A Title

Hello All,

Sorry it’s been awhile again since I’ve written. A lot has happened in the last couple of weeks. About 2-3 weeks ago, I deactivated my Facebook account. I was feeling the need for a much required break. So I sent my info to a few people who I wanted to keep in contact with and posted that I would be leaving for a little while and then a week later, I deactivated my account. Not sure how long I will be gone, or if I will come back, but will play it by ear.

Last week was a rough one emotionally. We lost two residents at work and I am still getting used to the death part. It was the main reason I didn’t want to be a caregiver. I get way to attached too easily, and then have to hold myself together until I can get to a private place and let it out. I have always had a hard time with that. The two residents we lost, I wasn’t as close too, and I don’t know what is going to happen when one passes that I am close too. It’s going to be really hard!

I have been attending this mindfulness class at the same place, where my counseling is. This last Monday, our exercise was to meditate on a stressful situation and think about how we could step back and respond to it differently. At first I  went through some stressful situations that didn’t really click. Then I came to one I thought I had dealt with. With everything going on, I felt really emotional and had a hard time holding it together. After the exercise, there was a big ball of emotion on my chest and I didn’t talk the whole class, for fear of loosing it. After class, I booked it to my car and cried on the way home. Then I got home and was still emotional and cried myself to sleep. Tuesday I had off from work, thankfully, and woke up still feeling emotional. I had called my friend M, and talked to her some but then she went into her stuff, so that didn’t help much. Then later in the day, I talked to my Pastor even though we had a time set to talk on Thursday. That helped a lot and I was able to get past the emotional part of the week.

I have also been missing Wyatt A LOT the last couple of weeks, which has added to my loneliness and emotional state.

Now I have today off and am doing a bunch of cleaning and then I work again tomorrow for 5 days in a row. I have hope that this coming week will be a much better one!

Love & Peace