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Still Alive…


I just wanted everyone to know that I am still alive. I have been in a place I haven’t been in a long time. Very depressed and with no interests whatsoever. At least before I was hospitalized, I was still interested in posting and stuff, but even that has gone away. I will try to post every so often until I get out of this slump.

Thanks for sticking with me.



First Full Day Of Work…

Yesterday was my first full day of work. It wasn’t to bad, except that I have two days worth of computer training, which I started yesterday. I was doing computer modules all day. By the end of the day, my brain felt like it was going to explode. I was so glad to come home. I have another day like that today. I am hoping to finish it today. The morning won’t be bad. Yesterday, I went through the morning fast. Then lunch hit, and it was all over after that. And by 5 O’clock, my brain was going at a snails pace. Everyone at work so far is really nice and caring. Of course I thought that at my other care giving job too. Though this just feels different.

Since I was overloaded last night, I didn’t have a post in me, but thought I would post this morning, to keep everyone updated.

Love & Peace

The Versatile Blogger Award

I have been nominated for The Versatile Blogger award. Thank you to Annie at Gentle Kindness for nominating me for this blog. I am so grateful that you nominated me. My prayers and thoughts go out to you.

Now I need to nominate some blogs. I am nominating blogs that speak to my heart. These are blogs that I follow regularly. Thank you to these bloggers for sharing your story. You are an inspiration to me.

A Journey With You
That Anxious Mom
James The Greatest
My Travels With Depression
Jules Rules Blog
Rebuilding Resiliance
Silver Girl
Understanding Me and Her
Therapy Sucks

So now here are seven things about me.

1) I ALWAYS look forward to blogging, and am VERY disappointed when I’m not feeling creative.
2) I enjoy painting, tiling, coloring, and pretty much anything else artsy.
3) I embrace change by tackling what comes into my life and overcoming it.
4) I express myself well, through writing.
5) I have an easygoing, funny and pleasant personality.
6) I’m an animal lover.
7) I received National Honor Society, when I graduated with my Associates in Criminal Justice, in 2011.

I don’t always see the good in myself, so my housemates helped me think these through. Thanks C and G!!!


Nothing Exciting!

Today I felt really good about myself. I went out and did 3 hours of yard work. Then when I came in for lunch, I wanted spaghetti. Instead of just having spaghetti, I also made peas and a vegetarian meat called Tender Bits. Then instead of heaping my plate full of spaghetti, I put the peas and tender bits on my plate first. This way I had to have a smaller portion of spaghetti, Then for supper tonight, I had Orville Skinny Girl popcorn, an apple with peanut butter, and a glass of water.

Because I was sick, I got behind on the Blogging 101 and haven’t even opened my emails in that account the last couple of days. I am hoping that I can get back into it next week. Otherwise I will just take it again next time. It’s free, so not really a big deal, though I am disappointed that I fell behind so quickly.

I have been looking at different sites for some blogging ideas on these days when I don’t feel like I have anything to say. So far I have found two sites that I like. Probably not tonight but next time I feel like there’s nothing to say, I will try and find a prompt that speaks to me and write about it. If anyone has any questions or ideas, feel free to leave them in the comments.

Here are the links to the two sites I have found that I like so far…



Well that is all for tonight!

Love & Peace

Everybody Has Someone Else….

I’ve been feeling a little lonely the last couple of days. I have a lot of friends and family who I am close too. What’s the problem, you say? The problem is they all have somebody else. They have a spouse, children or other friends. They go to the beach, a movie or out to eat. There is never an invite for me to come along. Which is fine, because I don’t want to be the third wheel. That’s not fun either. I have all these really positive people in my life, but in the long run, I still don’t fit. There’s not a place for me.

I need a single friend, male or female. Someone where there are no strings attached or sexual expectations. Just someone who I can be best friends with. This person will have similar interests where we can do a lot of things together, but also independent like me. I don’t want anymore co-dependent relationships. They have to be HEALTHY best friends type of relationship. And the other person should also be a person of faith, but open minded. We should be able to talk openly about our beliefs. We should be able to go back and forth, testing what the other believes. This will strengthen our faith in God.

I would like someone to say how important I am to them, without me asking. Without me being in a depressed mood. I just wish that I knew if I would be missed if I wasn’t here. My pastor has told me that I am a blessing to her. That really means a lot when she tells me that.

I don’t have the money now anyway, but it would be nice to have a friend invite me out, to do something free. We could walk in the park or something. I shouldn’t always have to take the initiative when it comes to doing something. That’s exhausting!

I’ve given my blog site to a few friends, and unless the stats are wrong, no one reads it. They all say they like how I write and that I’m good at it. They all say they are going to get around to it, but they don’t. That’s not the point of my blog, and I know that. The point of my blog is to help others, but I don’t know that it really does. I guess I just want to feel a little important right now. Like maybe I matter in the world.

Yeah, talk about a pity party, huh? Sorry, this has been bothering me for awhile, and I needed to get it out.

Thanks for listening, Devin

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7DlWyTpD3hM Wilco-How To Fight Lonliness