Tonight I was driving home from Recovery Group, and the sun was really bright in my eyes. I’m guessing it was for this other person too. Anyway, this car in front of me stopped at a green light. Had I not gotten over to my right, I would have rear ended them. When I got over though, I didn’t even think to check my blind spot, and another car went around me and honked. I am thankful that God gave me fast reflexes but also the other car who honked at me.
I am done with the computer training now. It took me 2 1/2 days to get it all finished. Today was my first day on the floor. It was good and actually went fairly fast. At least, once I got past the first two hours where I was trying to stay awake. So far, everyone is so friendly at this community. It’s very refreshing! I am thankful for this job.
I will also be moving soon. Either this weekend or next week. I will be moving into a transitional housing program. It is coming together and I know God is in the works.
And now it’s time for bed. I was going to take a 30 minute nap when I got home, but it ended up being at least an hour. I couldn’t believe I slept that long but my body needed it. And I still feel tired and ready for bed now.
Night all and God bless!
Yesterday was my first full day of work. It wasn’t to bad, except that I have two days worth of computer training, which I started yesterday. I was doing computer modules all day. By the end of the day, my brain felt like it was going to explode. I was so glad to come home. I have another day like that today. I am hoping to finish it today. The morning won’t be bad. Yesterday, I went through the morning fast. Then lunch hit, and it was all over after that. And by 5 O’clock, my brain was going at a snails pace. Everyone at work so far is really nice and caring. Of course I thought that at my other care giving job too. Though this just feels different.
Since I was overloaded last night, I didn’t have a post in me, but thought I would post this morning, to keep everyone updated.
Love & Peace
The drug test is figured out. There was a small amount of codeine, which I still don’t know where it came from. I wouldn’t think poppy seeds would would come up as codeine. Anyway, it was a small enough amount that they were able to count it as negative. So I go in for orientation today, and start the computer stuff tomorrow. It sounds like they are going to train me right away to be med tech, which will give me an extra dollar an hour. I am excited for this new chapter in my life!
Love & Peace
I would say my mood is about a 4 or 5 right now. I decided I needed to keep my promise and write a post tonight.
So last night my mood was a 1. I was not in a good place. A friend R that was in my program texted me to see how I was doing. When I told her my mood was a 1, she invited me over. I got to her place at 9 pm last night, and was there until about 10ish. It was really good to have her encouragement and support. And her dogs and cat loved me, which she said the cat and bigger dog, doesn’t usually like strangers. Most animals are like that with me though. The smaller dog was funny because she kept coming up by my shoulder. She would put her paw on my shoulder and stare at me. It was like she knew I wasn’t in a good place and was trying to comfort me. So that is how my mood went up to a 2 1/2.
Then this morning I woke up depressed. I was not in a good place this morning. I texted my pastor as a way to reach out, and we talked via text briefly this morning. Then I went back to bed. I had to force myself to stay up the rest of the day. Then since I had slept late, I just ate a bowl of cereal when I got up. I however, forgot to take my meds until an hour or more later. Since I didn’t have a hearty breakfast, and it was MUCH later, the meds gave me an upset stomach. I got sick and then felt REALLY tired, so then did lay back down to try and rest. Once I got up and took a warm bath, I felt a little better. My mood was starting to pick up, as I was really looking forward to church tonight. My mood improved between 3 and 4 pm. Church is at 5 pm. After church I stayed after and visited with G, who held church at her house tonight. My church is a house church, so we meet in members homes. I stayed and visited for about two hours. We had a good time and at the end, both G and her husband R said to come back more. So I may take them up on that.
I just arrived home, so now it is time to head to bed. I’ve got a busy day ahead of me.
My mood went from a 1 to a 3 this evening. Will post more tomorrow. I’m to tired right now.
So I still don’t have a post in me, so am making a decision to post anyway. I have decided to make a gratitude post. This is going to be a list post, which just feels easier at this time. So here goes…
1) My new place to live. A much more positive atmosphere. A room that I can make my sanctuary, that actually feels like MY room.
2) My housemate’s pets. Especially Roma, their dog. This morning when I came upstairs, I said good morning. As soon as I spoke, Roma got up and came to say hi, squeaking with excitement. It made me feel REALLY good!
3) I have some very supportive family, especially my Aunt K. I always appreciate our talks, and look forward to them. I always enjoy our time together too.
4) My very supportive church. Everyone is so uplifting and encouraging. They are there for me and have my best interests at heart.
5) All the friends I met in therapy. It was so good to be around people who understood what I was going through. Their support and encouragement was amazing, and helped me a lot!
6) My friend D, who is very special to me. He also makes me feel special. Whether we just stay friends or move into something more at some point, I really hope that it can be a life long relationship.
7) That my housemates love to cook (so I don’t have too), and know how to make REALLY good vegan food. It’s so good, I don’t even miss bacon as much as I did at my aunt and uncles.
8) My orchids, bamboo and spider plants are still alive.
9) I am creative. This is something I enjoy and it helps to de-stress me.
10)I’ve been sleeping well the last few nights.
Whew, I didn’t know if I could make it to 10, but I did. These are things I need to remember today so that I can get out of this darkness.
Love & Peace
I’ve got most of my stuff that is going to my new home, packed. Still a few things I will come back for Saturday. And then I will also need to clean the room/bathroom, I was living in. I will also need to do a few hours of cleaning that I didn’t get done this week. Then I will be on to unload at my new home. After that, I have a house sitting gig, so I won’t actually be staying at my new home until the 13th of the month.
God is SO amazing how He has taken care of my living situation in my life and other things too. The way He worked it out, is AWESOME! Our God is an Awesome God!!!