Feeling Like A Failure…

I just called my Dad for Father’s Day. We had a nice talk. He told me though, that my brother and his girlfriend just bought a house. He also told me that my brother is trying to start his own Roofing business. My brother is 4 1/2 years younger then me. I am 31 and barely surviving. I woke up depressed this morning because of some triggering dreams. The transitional housing fell through, for now. I might be able to do it in the future but for now, it’s not an option. This has created more tension here, as my roommates really want me out. Almost every time I go upstairs she asks me if I’ve been looking or found anything out yet. I’m just really depressed and need to talk to someone but don’t know who to talk too. Lately I just haven’t had the energy to blog. I would say my mood is about a 2 this morning.



4 thoughts on “Feeling Like A Failure…”

  1. I don’t know if you’re a Christian or not, but this is a quote that always helps me when I feel really low and like I’m barely surviving the challenges in my life: “Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don’t come until heaven; but for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come.” –Jeffrey R. Holland. Even if you’re not Christian, I believe the principle taught in this quote is true–that better times may come soon or may not come for awhile, but they do come. Good luck!

  2. I have an older sister who has traveled the world, done this and done that, and who clearly is my mother’s favorite. I try not to compare myself with her, and to realize that for me and all the depression and bi-polar up and downs I’ve had, I am actually doing really well. If I ever start to get jealous, I think “Do I really want to be like her?” And the answer is always “NO!” I bet you have many qualities, including sensitivity, that your brother doesn’t have, and that make you the special person you are.

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